I learned a lesson this week from a friend who is part of this world’s religious system, but he saw something in me that I had kept carefully hidden from myself.
He and I have these long conversations over the years about religion. He asks me questions which is not the best thing for a person steeped in this world’s religions to do. But they are all asked and answered in a spirit of friendship and curiosity.
In any event I was discussing with him a long held fear of mine and he asked me why I had not given that fear over to God. I told him that I had and then he asked why I still had the fear if I had given it to God? That stumped me. At first I tried to get around it because I could not answer it but being a long friend of mine he could see through the dodges. He knew I did not really want to answer the question so he hung on. Bull dog stubborn this fellow can be.
Suddenly in the midst of this rather animated, as opposed to heated, conversation I blurted out that I did not want to give this to God. I wanted to retain control of this situation. Needless to say there was a sudden break in the talking on both sides. He wasn’t sure what to say and I suddenly realized that I really meant what I had just said. I told him I needed to think about this and would speak with him later. Yeah I know that was a cop out but I really did need to take this to God and figure out what was wrong.
What I discovered amazed me. There was a portion of my life that I never wanted to relinquish control over to God. I wanted to stay in charge and to be the one who was solely in control of that aspect of my life. Even if I failed utterly at least it would be MY failure. Do you begin to see the hidden sin lurking behind the scenes?
Pride brethren. Pride so strong and so deeply ingrained in me that I was actually willing to fail at what I wanted to do than to share the credit of being successful. Pride is a strange sin brethren it is only powerful when it is hidden. The moment you shine the light of God’s truth on pride it begins to shrivel and die. It loses it’s power over us almost immediately.
As I prayed and meditated on this I began to see a little more clearly why many in the Laodicean ERA of the God’s church are lukewarm. God said that they were lukewarm because they said they were rich and increased with goods and had no need of anything.
Rev 3:15 I know thy works, that thou art neither cold nor hot: I would thou wert cold or hot.
Rev 3:16 So then because thou art lukewarm, and neither cold nor hot, I will spue thee out of my mouth.
Rev 3:17 Because thou sayest, I am rich, and increased with goods, and have need of nothing; and knowest not that thou art wretched, and miserable, and poor, and blind, and naked:
In the light of what has just been said can you see here the sin that is driving many of our people? They are so “PROUD” of what they know, knowledge than in fact has been given to them by God, that they refuse to see that they could possibly need anything more. It is the sin of Pride that is “BLINDING” them to what is wrong and allowing this lukewarm attitude to prevail in their lives. They do not WANT to see anything else that they did not think they already knew. They have blinded themselves by putting blinders on refusing to accept that they might need more. They stand like an Ostrich with his head in a hole in the sand thinking he is safe because he can’t see anything.
They have blinded themselves to false ministers, to minor changes in doctrines both good and bad.
We are called to a life of constant overcoming. When we stop believing that we have anything left to overcome or to learn then we have blinded ourselves. This attitude is driven by pride by not wanting to relinquish control to God to continue to show us what we are and what we need to know.
Christ has devoted Himself to trying to teach us what we need to know during this ERA of the Church. There is a reason why He is knocking on the doors of the individual members of the body of Christ rather than the groupings of God’s people as a whole. It is the individual that is most at fault. It is we ourselves who have through pride and ignorance blinded ourselves to the fact that we need to continue to grow and overcome.
Rev 3:19 As many as I love, I rebuke and chasten: be zealous therefore, and repent. ← Here is how you open the door so the light of God shines inside
Rev 3:20 Behold, I stand at the door, and knock: if any man hear my voice, and open the door, I will come in to him, and will sup with him, and he with me.
Brethren let us shine the light of God’s Truth on this pride that lays hidden within us. It can only remain strong and in control if it is kept in the darkness. It will shrivel and die once exposed to the light.